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The sky is dark, my heart is gone, you are far away, leaving me alone, I am not leaving, only so there is too much memory, the wind is blowing gently, the rain is coming, and I still Looking at the distance in a crazy way, because that is the direction you left, I hope that one day I can see your returning figure, but it is just hope, it will not be a reality, the rain will fall, the hair will be wet. But I still don't want to leave, maybe stick to it's the only excuse now. I think my heart is extremely hungry for the warmth of home. Sometimes I long for my parents' love. I often repeat a scene in my mind: "I" is the parent's palm, loved by my mother, and my father is pampered. The cousin, and the long life, the father found a stepmother. In the countryside, there is no woman in the family who can��t do it. My father and grandfather have finished their work and returned home. They have a cold stove at home. They have to dig the pot in the kitchen. The sadness and helplessness, I am deep. I understand that the stepmother brings two children, one boy is 16 years old and one girl is 14 years old Marlboro Wholesale Cigarettes. When the family suddenly has six children studying, the burden can be imagined. Immediately after the two sisters dropped out of school and went out to work, the original father said that there was no money to prevent me from going to college, but after I tried and persuaded, my father finally agreed to let the county credit union loan 5 Buy Newport Cigarettes Wholesale,000 yuan for me to report, but The premise is that the principal plus interest must go to school and return. Going to college has completely changed my life. If I gave up my studies, then it must be a completely different kind of fate. I was a classmate of the police school. Most of them are children of rich or powerful people. Learning is not so good, spending money to find relationships to send in Newport Cartons For Sale. I am in such an environment, how inferior and depressed I am going to Xi'an for the first time, the bus will not sit, from the aunt's house to the bus stop, I will send my father to the bus stop and meet the crossroads. The traffic lights are even more nervous to the palm of my hand. I am like a goose. When I stop in the dilemma, a chubby girl with me tells me that she likes to eat Shaqima. What is it? A kind of food Buy Cigarettes Marlboro, let her military training for ten days! I remembered this name, but after many years I only saw its true face. A girl in the same dormitory as me, once asked me to eat casserole rice noodles. Before that, I only ate a bowl of spicy rice noodles, or my sister who worked in Xianyang took me to visit me during my summer vacation. But this bowl is going to be three yuan, but I am close to my daily living expenses! The female classmate saw my blank expression and said, "You, it is too much a day!" When the boss came up, I saw a The yellow-brown jars have a tempting aroma. Through the gap between the white hot air, I saw the thick rice noodles with ham, meatballs, quail eggs, tofu skin and kelp... The key is the richness on it. The sauce, with the fried diced oil tofu inside, I dare say, it must be the most delicious and extravagant meal I have ever eaten during my student life. My father and stepmother went to see me once. I left 100 yuan for me when I left. Although my living expenses three dad will occasionally help, but often in a state of ignorance. My aunt asked me to go back to her house every weekend, so I could spend less. How I wish my father could call me often, talk to me about the school, ask me if I have enough money, but he has rarely called. Although it is my aunt and aunt, some people who want to talk to their parents in particular can't say anything. My fragile and sensitive heart, there is often a kind of sadness under the fence. I am left with a dollar in the embarrassed situation. I have to use the only one yuan to take the bus to the small restaurant where the two sisters work. She gave me some living expenses. At that time, she only found a job for a few days, and she was penniless (because the restaurant bag was eaten and lived), and forced to be impatient. The second sister could only cry for the restaurant owner to advance 100 yuan to her, let me be a living expenses, and that The kind boss has actually answered. The two of us took the 100 yuan and laughed, excitedly pulling and jumping. I don't have to worry about eating anything when I go to class. This life-saving 100 yuan can at least maintain my half-month living expenses. The follow-up living expenses of Sanmei said that she would send it to me when she sent her salary. The second sister sent me back on the road, the sun in the noon sun, the two of us were dry and sweaty. We found a shade in the shade of the trees, and suddenly saw the big watermelon on the watermelon stand, and I could smell the scent of the heart. My sister and I said in unison: "Watermelon is so delicious!" I remember very clearly: I spent two yuan to buy a tooth watermelon. I asked the boss to cut a lot of small teeth with a knife, so that we can eat More, more thirst quenching and more sweet and occasional a brother and sister to meet, talk about the past, can not help each other, burst into tears. It turns out that we are all children who have been abandoned by love. They are deeply hiding their true feelings. Their appearance is independent and strong, and they are intact. In fact, they are fragmented and fragile. A warm hug, a bowl of hot soup hot rice is enough to make us grateful. This is really a kind of sad life. Sometimes it is envious of cousin. From childhood to big, I was like a princess who was favored by my aunt. The hands are white and tender. This year is 26 years old. Every day my aunt can make several phone calls, nothing more than eating. What kind of meal? Early break, work is not too tired, such as love whispers... Time is long, the cousin sometimes complains before us that her father and mother are annoying, but we want that "annoyance", but can not be expected Got it. Every time a cousin sends a message, the aunt is always the first time to send words of encouragement, support and comment. Similarly, I have been micro-credit for several years, often sending photos, links and poetry essays written by myself, but my father never gave me a compliment and said any inspiring words. On the contrary, they chatted with their friends who were passing by. They were happily dying Buy Newport Online. I was used to suffering all the injuries and pains alone. It was just this pain that made my life too depressed and too heavy. The years are rushing, but the memory is not old. Whose fault is this? A psychologist thinks: "Father plays an important role in the formation of her daughter's sense of self-esteem, identity and gentle personality." But for us Sisters, we are seriously lacking in this piece, which directly leads us to find that the three husbands are at least four years older than themselves, because they are mature, they will care about people, know how to love, and let our dry minds I have a lot of warmth and feel the happiness of being loved. I have always been very supportive: "Daughter wants to raise this sentence"! When a girl's material needs can be satisfied, she can have more and better spiritual pursuits. It is also easy to establish self-confidence and self-esteem, and it is not easy to be tempted by the outside world. Even if there is no money, but give the child a lot of love and care, let her always appreciate the parents' attention and mind, her spiritual world is at least full, I am like a wounded bird experiencing countless storms, slowly healing Carefully caressing, learned to bury all the pain in the bottom of my heart, let it turn into the bitterness of the silk and slowly swallow. I grew up day by day, the wings are gradually full, the forehead is high, the spirit is accumulated, and the wings are flying again! Because everything has made me understand - the road to fly is very hard, to fly better and Higher - you can only rely on yourself!